Mom

Dear mom,
You've been a girl like me..
you've had the feelings like me..
You more than anyone else knew what I was going through..
and there's a part of me that says you still do..

I know you're scared of the society,
of the shaming and bad-mouthing
that they are so good at;
but mom, listen..
they don't care about you,
they don't care about me,
They don't care about anyone else for that matter...
they only care about their morning cup of chai a.k.a. their gossip!

I don't care about them.
I don't wish to see people like that.
Who I do wish to see is you, happy..
not the way you are now..
because I see you everyday cribbing about how you settled for something less..
something you don't deserve...

You say you're too old to like the change.. if you ever make any,
but I'm still young..
ready to make mistakes
to live my dreams and aspirations, something you once had too...
but mine are a bit bold ... like..

I want to move out (without getting married),
to get a place of my own..
I want a really good job with a workload I don't dislike..
I want pets, lots and lots of them..

I want my own space, to make mistakes and to learn from them,
to lose and gain..
to fall in and out of love
till I find the One...
And I want to be with him when I am ready.. not when you or anyone else is..

I want to travel to places,
I want to feel my passion grow as the days pass by..
And when my emotions overwhelm me, I want to express them without having to think," Oh God If she see's me..."

Most of all, I want to be happy..

Maybe, according to you, what I want from life is just a phase..
(actually I know you believe it's a phase)
but I can't walk away from this based on a few if's and but's..
I won't..

and my journey to get there would become so much easier if you'd just please listen...



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Again, Family alert :P

P.S. I did not write this because I don't love my mom, or because I don't respect her for who she is.. and I'm more than grateful for everything she's done for me.. I just want different things for myself than she does ...
It's not like I'm trying to be a lazy, good for nothing person..


Peace out everyone *sigh*